frustrated?

today is my official last day of work at my dad's place. xD nonid go there work liao. syok. muahaha. but some how i felt frustrated too. some how like i have nth 2 do for a month or two? if i confirm studying at farc then i hav 2 months ding dong at home. dats quite impossible ler. boring sia sit at home.. hmmm. mayb just get a job at gsc 2 kill some time? its really bored sitting at home doing nth and my games are out now. nth else 2 play. kenot hack in luna. =X sien. now i'm listening 2 the semi old songs, reminded me alot of things. i dont really want 2 rmb it but it somehow stayed in my mind for a couple of years. seriously, its tiring 2 rmb those that have alrdy passed and will never happen agn in my life. =( these few days i jz play texas poker. getting bored out of my mine. nth 2 do wert. hmmm. mayb wen my college starts then its gonna change. =) hope so. tonite going xiang lin's place agn. hmmm. hope really go back at TWO not SIX am AGAIN. aiks.

money honey =D

hahaha. yesterday i went cruising with wew, chen wen and wew's mom.xD we gambled. at 1st i shared jz with wew. then we won bout 80 bucks like that. then later, chen wen come in. i tink duno win how much. but abit nia i think. then later her mom joined in, so it became the 4 of us, gambling and we managed 2 win 1.2k , so shared with four ppl its rm300 ea person. xD i couldnt stop and i continue. i won another 200 xDD hahaha. so happy. so bout total of 600 i won. minus the cruise ticket rm60 and the bingo we played at the shit , i stil won rm500. hahaha. syokkk. at home, i gave mom rm150. and then we went out and had a short supper till the lighting started 2 growl. then we rushed like maddd a!! then go home sleep lo.
today my day started with coming period. zz. then period pain wen i m in the office. then my dad call me go home earlier due 2 the dark clouds. xD i was happy la. then i went home and slp. and i couldnt get 2 slp. my aches is not jz bout period pain, it feels like my other part or organs also pain. suffered till 6. had a short nap and woke. now waiting for dinner. heheh

unforgetable

To the her which they know who they are,
1st who,
sorry dat i couldnt treat u like a fren anymore. the incidents that had happened before still orbitting on my brain now. 7years of frenship (std 5 - f5) wait, there's 1 incident did occured on f3 so its 5 years of frenship, just got the end there. seriously the situation at the porch stills on my head. although i dont really remember the words but i do rmb the main points. i will never forget them in my life. as for the form5's one, i couldnt believe u would hav said dat. friendship end is wat we were supposed 2 say wen we were younger like form 2? that time we might consider ourselves as childish and naive. but form 5, what do u expect? its going 2 b joke for every1. mayb i suldnt hav been close 2 u frm the start. but only God knows what will hapen in our lifes it was fate. but we do hav a choice. we always do. its whether we decide correctly on the right time or the other way round. i dun even unds myself, why am i writing everything here now. i feel stressed, frustrated and a lil confused. mayb i couldnt find any1 close or rather trusted. at the very moment, i feel like screammmmm out loud and start crying. release everything in a proper way is better, rather then keeping them 2 urself. its hard 2 keep everything 2 urself and find solution by ur self. life is full of obstacles and tasks, so we must solve them wisely, right? hmmm. hmmm. what's life like now? misery and doesnt even know wher to go. school's muc more easier. i miss those days. ='( but those were the days, time doesnt wait for us. its just we wait for the time 2 pass by and time flies. unconsciously, without hesitating, time just go. so much i have missed out. i wish i could turn time back and start everything over agn. rather then living in regrets and misery. dang. feeling better now i guess. btw, just thought bout it, from frens, we became enemy and then u started 2 tok back 2 me and u started another fight and u started 2 talk back 2 me. dont u get tired ? seriously, if u dont get sick of it, i tell u, i do. i'm sick of it. i'm tired of it. but its way better now. we both had left the school. =) and i'm seriously tired of thinking you ( another person kay) . seriously tired. i need a break.

cy's bday

cy's bday cy's bday cy's bday cy's bday was yesterday .. yesterday.. yesterday..
so its on the 16th. =.= not ytd ytd ytd haha
sot jor. anyway. it was fun XD we went for pizza hut . then we went for BED. hmmm
we had pizza then we crapped .then sara wanted 2 buy m7 so they went soooo far away 2 subaidah 2 buy =.= swt. then i waited like an idiot in bed. the drinks there were cute. etc: sex in bed, organsm smth smth. blowjob and stuff likethat. oh yea. slippery nipple. LoL. its owvbiously cute. but nth is cuter than hc's drink.er duno wat la. it was alcoholic and expensive =.= and smalL! but the cup were cute. XD hmmm. anyway wat i wanted 2 mention in this blog is dat, in pizza hut da time, idk wat happened la. 1 shot 1 shot back. keat. no shot also tio shot. =.= wtf la. i got it alrdy now. wew and hc is my WITNESS ! dang.

valentine's day?

hmmm. today was a supreme day! XD last starts it with i was gambling at my bro's fren's hse . LOL. since 10.45PM lidat till 5.30AM. it was fun.. after that i ronda here and there and here and there. just looking for a burger or smth 2 eat =.= at tg bungah there, i ronda here n there. i was scared. not that i'm alone, nor that its dark. it's becuz the cars were scary. they speed all. now i hav just realised that its dangerous out there. =) and then, li chen din reply me so i din went her place, i was paiseh 2!! @.@ then shereen not yet wake. and i woke her LOL. then cy didnt wake. =X she din reply me, din hear my miss calls. lean nee was late abit i think wen she replied. xD dat time i was alrdy in mavis's place. keat lo. no place 2 bath hav 2 go ppl's place. wat a great thing. lol. then later terus straight went 2 youth park there. for cpt cross country. heheh. i went ronda-ing and crap. oh yea. aimee choon run till go turf club there and until she realised, she hav alrdy lost her straw. or mayb the checkpoint wasnt there. but she's soooo great? she managed 2 run till turf club and come back. one of the teachers saw her running and didnt tell her where 2 run. teruk looo. hmmm.

--results--
1st - green scored - 97 ? i think ?
2nd - red scored - i forgot? LOL
3rd - yellow scored - 58 ? or 60? just win blue a mark!
4th - blue =( scored - 57 ? or 59? i think 58. lol
sad sad sad sad. why blue last. at least third ma. T_T
--the end--

after dat me, poh poh (poh lynn), wai may, jenny and joe mun went for subaidah. then out of no where we said wanna go jenny's hse. then we went. its near the farlim/air itam swimming pool there. waaaaa. sibei far. can die eh lo. sit till my butt baaaaaaaaaaaaa. then after dat we went green lane way 2 go home but it jammed like shit. zzz. stucckeed under the sun for duno how long then every1 went home lo after dat. xD btw, joe mun unstable lo. if i was behind her, i feel scary, becuz she is unstable and she just folo the person in front just like that. its not safe. LOL. scary lo. even pohpoh says that. haahahahaha. five bikes. seriously i should havent taken a photo but i didnt idk why. =.= hmmm then i went home i slept at my sofa. then after a while i slp on the floor. its so damnnn hottt!! er then went sofa. i went for another chair( old man's chair lol) then i went for my bed. xD and i woke at 9.35 swt. i tot 7smth.. zzzz then i went dinner. and now blogging heheh. today's valentine's day. and he is not out. =( they broked up. hmmm. i wonder what happened. hmmm. seriously, love is uncertain. its no good at all. LOL. anything could happen. =X its really scary and yet happy. to love and not to love is ur choice =) to live in misery and in all this. its not good. move on. think positive. there's always another better day. =D cheers

er?

er? er? er? back 2 few days ago i had nightmares and stuff lidat. the nightmares really did scare my butt off man. ugh. way 2 horrible! aiks. cy's bday is coming.. what suld i giv her ? =X culdnt think much though.. as idk wat she likes XP i just asked her izit okay if i bring heineken for her as present. hahahahaha. XD din see her reply yet. hmmm. wew's going hk this wed, elaine and melissa is going back aussie this wed, and my bro's fren is going back on wed TOO. =.= why all go back on wed eh. ish. today is crap. jz nw bring lucky go vivi and poopoo.. her poopoo fly kena my foot and HAIR!?!?!?!?! =.= T_T seriously my hair just got dry not long and omg. crap shit. wat is this?! but nt her fault la. i stupid also eh. sigh. she shited then i threw her paper 2 lapik her shit eh manatau she shit agn then i take a stick and push it in, just in case ppl steppped on it! but ho si bo ho po. KEK SIM toh wu la. haiz. kinda confused now. is there more? loving someone which u couldnt love that person brightly is tough indeed. =X the moments is really so mesmerized. xD i wonder when will the karisma book b released this year. xD oh yea. ytd gamble till 6am. =.= win lose win lose ended up lose back. sad. T_T playing poker is much more strategy game than any other gambling game. i really hope wew will go cruise then go try out there. XD si kiau kui. hahaha. idk why i lk gamble also. mayb its becuz i felt everything in life is like a big or small. u buy big it may come out big or small. everything has a 50-50 chances. u nvn try , u wont noe. =X haha. what am i thinking ? i dun even know myself now. just take everything that occurs like that. hmmm. what am i suppose 2 do? er? er? er? ....