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wait, ytd was a great night. had so much fun there. =) and happy beearlied birthday ee wei ah ma. ahahha woots. syokk ar. enjoy cho-siau-ing there. XD i've realised that actually things are so different with you now. i dont know if u realized it. but i can feel it. so much. and the one major difference is that i dont know u anymore. i dont recognize the u i knew before. it's upsetting. =(

baby, are you?

down down down down down!??!?!?!?!!!
ish. lost rm400 in the gambling ship today.
damn down wei. =(
any1 can cheer me up? haiz
really din expect that to happen. =X

woots

woots. presentation got B+. haha. okay la. another group presentation =S hmmm. today talked about going KL/Genting and Taiwan with wew n hc. syok nia. haha. say dy now more eager to go. hahah. really cant wait to go.. hmmm. nowadays nowadays. what else can i say. i miss mahai-ing u all. woots. tired and restless bout asgmts and presentations. =X dead soon. and also test. T_T

mahai you all!

mahai mahai mahai. long time no fuck liao. mcb. all you people out there! woots! sot jor. i dont really know what's going on nowadays. seriously. its a tremendous change. massive change. these days i seem to learn more lessons day by day. i used to see through things and jump in my self, as another person, to understand the situation more. but now. i just felt that i see things even more clear now. i dont know what else to say. but it just doesnt make any sense. really dishearten now. extremely. also heartache for every single thing that i saw with my own eyes. if i could choose, i choose to not to believe. its just unbelievable. hard for me 2 just accept it . so what if i'm soooo sad or isolate myself from others. no point right? no one will understand about it. no one gonna give a fucking damn about it. so what? might as well i just be selfish and care everything just bout myself. only selfish(er) can be winners. they will win at last. today is also juven's birthday, happy birthday dear~! woots. hmmm. tomorrow is sara's XD back to the point. mahai!!!!! really want to say it out loud. who can i go to when i m down? i dont trust people anymore. NOT ANYMORE!! mother fucking shit. i dont give a fucking damn. i dont fucking care anymore!!!!!!! FUCK SHIT!!!!!!!!!

the 6th day

the 6th day that i m sick. sieness.
1st day -> headache + sore throat.
2 nd - 4th -> sore sore throat d. vomit. diarrhea
5th -> thought gotten better, stil just sore throat.
TODAY! VOICELESS. WTF!

chill?

seriously down now. can somebody hear me out? everybody is treating me like this. what else could i do? you n you. environment is even different now. its really upsetting. i dont know where else can i go. i need a shoulder, a hug, and a long scream~~ tough shoulder to support my head and tears, a warm hug to keep me warm and a scream to release everything else out. seriously, i dont know what else can I do. its just so shocking to find out the truth is so cruel. sudden shock. i couldnt take it. i wanna chill. assignments, presentations, i'm letting all out. i m better off this. i dowana be just another dumbass in class. seriously, i have 2 be outstanding A LIL. not that type. right? whatever adi la. doesnt bother me anymore. move along move along like you ... blahh. dont know. somebody tell me. what did i did wrong? even if i apologize, that doesnt mean anything? i didnt know. i never knew. i need. i need a walk. damn i hate this. SPEAK TO ME YOU PEOPLE. MOTHER FUCKER!!!!!!!! I REALLY WISH TO SAY THOSE WORDS OUT LOUDLY. RELEASE TENSION! MCB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

They are all over everywhere,
But who are the real ones?
Who are not faking with you?
Do you ever realize it?

I never knew it until today ,
I've seen everything now.
Everything has changed,
Since that day.

Never will ever feel that again
it had changed.

shit la. my poem sense all gone.

I'm still here breathing now. =)

Low Shoulder -> Through the Trees. <3 it so much! XD
tiredness and boredom. sien. lifeless. argh.

Can you hear sound of the sea calling,
and under the shadowy moonlight,
that's where I first met you.
back then, I didn't know you.
but now you keep appearing in my mind.
I guess , I've already fallen for you.
You've attracted me and I'm curious,
just to know a little more about you.


blablabla. good night. eh copyright :P

Amelia's Birthday ^^

today's amelia's birthday XD i slept at 5am and woke at 3.30 PM LOL! but i did woke up in between. really much damaged. aiks. i m not going to hang out till late nights anymore. not until i am really prepared. not really much. ugh. we went to salsas and red for the cake cutting ceremony LOL so formal ar? haha. anyway. when i was there i had so much in my mind. maybe tomorrow night i will jot it down here. really very much confusions. @@ and, HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMELIA! muacks~~