new year.

its been a long time since my last post. xD lazy 2 write . lol. hmmm. nowdays boring lo. work play sleep. sleep also not enuf eh. =( hmmm. so much had happened. i've just realised dat frens doesnt last long as it was supposed 2 last forever. but it seems 2 b just another saying. frens forever, best fren forever, keep in touch . .etc etc .. now it seems 2 b lost in touch. every1 seems 2 hav their own way and hav already went their own seperated way. hmmm. every1 had changed =D i tink. i guess. somehow i hav the feelings. should i forget those memories i have in cpt and start another diary? it's tough but i tink i should. becuz rmbing the memories of the past that brings happiness 2 u is good but when the people in the memories is alrdy gone, there's no point. what for remembering someone or somebody or something when you are not appriciated? this really makes me confuse. these few days or weeks, i've been thinking bout it. am i at the wrong side or am i in the right side. or mayb i have think too much. but there's a feeling inside dat u could hold it and u feel lk saying it out 2 some one, but there's no one u could tell or u wanna tell. holding this confusion causes me 2 hav unwanted and yet unnessary grudges. where it was supposed 2 b the best memories in my life. but now its just a pass by. i dont have much close frens. dats why i'm stuck here. mayb i should just forget bout everything. every single ting happen, but could i just ? i rmb all those memories with them. bt now it wouldnt repeat. but it tasted as if u were eating a lolipop. u would wan more of those memories. but now its GONE. wat am i supposed 2 do ? everything didnt went smoothly. its just smth terrible. =X hmmm.
today is new year's eve and i cant go out. its like what the fuck? its the fifth year that i really spend time with my frens going out for the countdown and all those crazy stuff we did. spraying and all. this year all gone. zzz. sucks. and now prarents dont allow me 2 go out. fuck it. FUCK it. seriously form1 to form4 i go out also nothing hapen la. wtf la. zzz. lame lo i tell u. mother fucker. reali fedup with this. ugh. no motorbike then how do they expect me 2 go out. much more like a dumbass count down now. sighs. what am i supposed 2 do? =(