*missed out

i missed out to say about the so called part time job i got in G Hotel. just for two days. on last sun and yesterday(tuesday). what a terrible day that sunday was. the 7 of us went there. er. this includes, ln,jm,tinee,jenny,pl,joanne and me. lols. only five worked at last. er, jm,tinee and pl have to go gurney to buy socks. lol? cuz socks is NOT black? zz. then me n ln have to find PANTS, pure black, which means no stripes, buttons and so. we also need to find another pair of PURE black SHOES. which ours was the converse eh. got white parts. ZZ its so frustrating there u know? i mean its just a day of work right? a day or two i suppose. and all those rules we have to follow. and and this lady there. ERYNN TAN! ZZZzzzZ! suck. at first, she looked really fine. with the smile and so la. so we all thought that she was real kind. but then she turned into a evil witch! wtf wei. sucks man. those who were there , knows it. understands it. advice u all lo. if wan to work as WAITRESS there, remember, BLACK ALL. not even a single mistake there. and also. NO nails~~~ and about 1 and a half hours exploring the lift and so, i already knew where are some of the departments located there. they even provide fuss ball and computer (i think) for the worker there. hmmm. not bad huh? guess that is just another not my day days. =/
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anyway. today i've really really realised something and i'm pretty sure about it. i've lost a very good friend. i guess so? every one is really different now. who else could i go to? no 1 else but just me. i maybe even isolated now. =( think i will just have to face it when i cant even mend it. right, cheryl? sigh. after so long. after so many things that have happened, i just found out there's only one person you could trust the most. and they will never betray you. that's your inner self. =) i want to understand the situation. but i m not able to do so. i want to understand what had happened. there's not even a single chance. what else could i do? sit back and stuck up here? yes i supposed. last option of all the options i have . sit back and suffer. =)