chill?

seriously down now. can somebody hear me out? everybody is treating me like this. what else could i do? you n you. environment is even different now. its really upsetting. i dont know where else can i go. i need a shoulder, a hug, and a long scream~~ tough shoulder to support my head and tears, a warm hug to keep me warm and a scream to release everything else out. seriously, i dont know what else can I do. its just so shocking to find out the truth is so cruel. sudden shock. i couldnt take it. i wanna chill. assignments, presentations, i'm letting all out. i m better off this. i dowana be just another dumbass in class. seriously, i have 2 be outstanding A LIL. not that type. right? whatever adi la. doesnt bother me anymore. move along move along like you ... blahh. dont know. somebody tell me. what did i did wrong? even if i apologize, that doesnt mean anything? i didnt know. i never knew. i need. i need a walk. damn i hate this. SPEAK TO ME YOU PEOPLE. MOTHER FUCKER!!!!!!!! I REALLY WISH TO SAY THOSE WORDS OUT LOUDLY. RELEASE TENSION! MCB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!