happy?

what makes me happy? i dont know either. achieving good grades? kena lottery? lol? laughing stupidly with the besties? i dont know. maybe i so tired about life and i dont even know what makes me happy now. i feel life's meaningless and there's no point to continue living? but i will still live until i found my meaning of my life, my story of life. what's life all about when there's no true laughter? u dont even know the comrades beside you are true to you or rather just another faker or another advantage taker. the world is getting more and more realistic. and also materialistic. what is worst? we can do NOTHING about it. like nothing. with the weather and the people around you, life's getting tougher. tough tough. and and, finals. sucks. who likes taking exams or test? but everyone will eventually go through it. the difference is time and what matters is how well are you prepared for it. yes i am not prepared. hates test* currently, i'm listening to Lin Jun Jie's Bei Dui Bei Yong Bao. i find it quite nice and it reminds me of the moment where the two girls who bei dui bei yong bao with jj! shit ass. crap man. woots* why do i even bother? lol! watever i am crapping la. aiks. i jz realised that these days i dun really know what am i doing. feeling so lost. so isolated. oh yea. today my mom ordered the sofas dy. weee* syok ness. like shereen's favourite word, AWESOME. xD what's on my mind now? nothing much. just that my tamadun then my english and worst, ohr. the toughest among all. okay and then today. this ahem* told me she was sad cuz of her house. i felt so random in her. lol. then another girl told me i am her diary. haha. happy to hear that actually. at least, i feel i exist in them. though it may not last long. but at least, i existed Before. after all, i just want the people around me to be happy. if they are, then i am. maybe this is my happiness? =| i dont know and i wanna know. interesting huh. crap la. ahh tired. want break but boh break. break have 2 go work. damn poor d. kao sai. the trend is kao sai. woots.