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o.O sometimes i do wonder is this really what i want. but the choice is not at my place. because this is all destiny and fate, that was decided by God before we even exist. i seriously do feel i should at least put some effort to make a change about this. i seriously fcuking hate it now. i mean real dope in this place. like really really dope. and i mean it. it's make me feel unease as everything is not the same. i dont know whether it's the people who changed it or it's the time that had passed by us. everything seems to be different. i would like 2 make a change. perhaps. i am considering to go kampar to pursue my degree? maybe? may not? because penang is still my favourite place, the food and the people, and not to forget, the memories! =D and kampar = ulu-ness. woots. but when there's no pain, there's no gain. without sacrificing, one may not succeed? lol. then the second reason is that i will miss lucky.. haha. i said till like i am not coming back, yes. i am coming back. but i dowana come back like so often? waste of time, energy and MONEY! it's not cheap to travel er. hmmm. but around m11, i think it's fine. =D because i am happy with them. ah. at least, something to be happy of. what a relieve. o.O hmmm. one by one coming up to me. woots. whatever! i will grow stronger ! fight! scream! sacrifice! WOOO!