#272

Today was just another usual day. Wasted money on buying the numbers, again.. Damn. But never mind. Worst was, the wedding dinner. Oh god, but the happy thing today was also about the wedding dinner. I realised when my bro's wedding , we did not dance. Oh, what a waste right? Sigh. But never mind. There's still chances. Wait till i've fully transform myself to someone else. I don't really like the me now. Don't know why. But we should accept who we are right? I just can't .. Seeing the imperfections kids within me, makes me feel smaller, weaker, perhaps a little helpless. I don't know. I want people around me to be happy, without bothering my own safety or happiness.. Crap , I have this in my mind now.. ' I just wanna hold you closely, hug you tightly, kiss you lightly, and tell you, hit me, gently. Oh my god. That's so ughhhhhh.. Haha.. Whatever. Suddenly , I miss looking at the sunrise and sunset.. =( I miss lying in your arms.. Who would know what I want right? Blahh.. When the time comes, you can never run!