#374

I dont giv a fuck about it. I wanna go so badly. But it seems like no one and nothing is supporting me to go. Ohmygod. I need help. From buddha. Idk whats going on with me now. I just hope i sleep now and i will never wake agn. Idk. My heart aches so much that i could really feel the pain. Heart crashing . Crushed. Smashed. Dead. Not alive. And the tears from my eyes just couldnt really stop. Damn. I feel like cutting myself now. a scar to remember how much pain i feel now. Oh my buddha. I could barely move my legs also. Sigh