stubborn?

i feel stubborn today. extremely. lost my mood. feels lifeless. hmmm. maybe today it's a nightmare to me. at the age of 18, EIGHTEEN, only i plucked away my last baby tooth. now i'm toothless. sad. really sh-t la. sigh. dont know what else could i do. why didnt i realize it like 3years ago? haha. dont know pun la. it didnt came off by itself ma. how am i supposed to know right? sad la sad la. heartbroken. then. hmmm. what else. mummy told me something that's on my mind since a few days ago. i've thought of it over and over again. i think it should time already. after so long. and the main reason was that, it wasnt she who invited me at the first place. whichever la. i'm going for the sake of fun and my friends, a'ight? i dont know what else to say. i'm blur and mood-less today. dont even know how to smile. not at all.