#366 stressed!

i guess i am really so stressed up now. for the past one week, i couldnt sleep well. eat well. concentrate on what i should concentrate. no appetite. =( its saddening to hear that. where was the sk i once knew? who has all the confidence and do things with courage! where are u courage? where r u faith? where r u confidence? where r u believe!? i am lost. so lost. idk what striked me till i became this. i miss the old me. now i am afraid of everything. i am afraid to lose anything. like really everything. =O i was used to not afraid of tests and finals but now i am so tensed up that i could just blow up. arghh. roars! i am a roaring goat! not a scapegoat! btw, last tuesday, i was scolded by a lecturer, hairband. becuz of smth i did not do. damn it. then mon night got lecturered by my dad, fcuk it. everyday got problem. mcb. i cant stand this anymore. i just want to chillax! get wasted. but now i am stucked on you! damn it. u r so out of my league. totally out. i could i see u from far, knowing u will never be mine. so close yet so far. but if u r happy then i am. and i hope i did not annoyed u for pass few days. becuz i am lame. i wasnt like this! again! over over! i want the old me!!!!! ughhhhhh!!!! ROARSSSSSS!!!!!