bonbon~

today. woke up in a steam way. perhaps i shouldn't have replied her at the first place, last night. it brought back my sadness after i have stopped it. but nevermind la. woke up quite steam. but luckily. it's not swollen anymore. but something else was swollen. LOL. worst. if sue sees it. for sure i kena :S but watever la. what had happened, happened. what should be done, should have done. it's time to face something else more important. assignments. eh wait. back to today. er. watched sin guang the whole day lo. nothing else better to do. =S then went to bon odori. quite boring la actually. but there's nothing else better to do uh? at least i kept myself busy for the day, it passed by more quickly and peacefully. then after bon, when to nando's with wew,sue and kevin. lol. eat till damn full after starving in bonbon. :S then all of us left.. me n wew went to meet yy,sunny,bird.shawal,stanley and hc at bh2. laughed like shit. laughed the hell out of us. it's been a while since i last laughed. haha. laughed so naturally. =| there's still some dilemma in my head. lol. i dont know what is wrong and what is right anymore.. i dont know what else can i do anymore.. i dont what else to say too. what should i do? act as if nothing had happened? sorry. i couldn't do that. it's hurtful if i do that to myself. i ain't fake. btw. i am not writing this to get sympathy. i just wanna jot down my journals. yes. perhaps. watever. so sick of everything. if there were just a reset button or a turn back time machine. for sure. i wont let anything negative to happen in my life. but that's impossible. lol. i find that the challenges gets more difficult from time to time. the matter of fact is, i did not grow stronger. i live in my past. i can't let go. i'm stubborn. that the typical me. o.O roars. this wounds don't seem to heal (by one of evanescence's song) roars. watever. i needa point. o.O i will go insane if this continues.