a little too not over.

a lil too not over, my past. my past has haunt me. i will never understand. i may have alrdy made it a burden 2 myself, but however, i'm still struggling 2 get it off. but i'm not over it! yes i'm listening 2 al il too not over. thats why i say out the lyrics. its in my ears! i cant seem 2 face the truth and i really dont know what to do! i need advices. somebody help me? haha. so much had happened 2 me until i dont even know where am i going. its tough 2 live a life where you dont even know where are u. aiks. pain in the ass huh. sometimes i do get jealous of the people who had their parents love them, care them and they can feel it, DIRECTLY. seen. felt. touched. hmmm. mine? i know i disayangi. but i dont feel it. not anymore. as time pass by, i m feeling that i'm getting more and more lonelier. mayb its just my thought. but i have the feeling. i dont like it. its torturing. yes. feeling that u r being alienated. isolated. lefted out. so not in the flow of the world. somebody tell me what 2 do? tell me who am i? i wanna scream. i wanna get drunk. i wanna chill. somebody save me. =/