H2H Talk. Rachel's party. 8/3 - 9/3

a day that i wouldnt forget for the rest of my life :: the day started off with jo's party at sesame soy inside g hotel. the main course was okay, but not the starter. uncle lim & wife, ah siong (cy's bro) & gf, jo, xiang mei, fu xian, yy, cy, me, wew, shi wei and mavis was there. er. cy say her "daughter" there. XD from her kindy wan. haha. after that we hanged out for a while in gurney. then left at 3.30+ or smth. then i went home and watched movie. xD then bath and get rdy and went for rachel's party. okay the party was boring. not much ppl went. and then, not much food? wew me n hc were hungry so we ordered McD. XD lol. after the mcd is here. rachel go n order pizza. but in the end, we din see any pizza boxes also. sweat. nevermind. then 8smth9, yy , cy n jo left. then wew and bird n hc left at 12smth. hc was so dissapointed. heheh. btw, the chicken wing made by vino was nice. XD er. oni i ate 1 chicken wing. then wew n hc din try tio. lol. then the real night starts. we start 2 talk a lil. and then rachel n aisyah DISSSAPPEARED. LOL. left me brenda n shi wei. we talk lo at the balkoni. then went in. talk talk talk. at first we started a lil gossiping. and then a lil career. and then, i was the idiot who started 2 talk bout those words inside my heart for quite some time. and there were some were 11 years alrdy. some had been 5 years. some had been 3years pls. i dont know whether saying out is right or wrong. but its a relieve. after i have said that out. feels like just lost a burden. xD i also duno whether i did offended them anot becuz hoh. i too straight ma. LOL. mayb i have said 2 much. mayb i have said wat i supposed 2 say. we had cried enough lol. half a basket of tissue. lema lo. damn cham. XD that rachel sumore din cry tio. she jz sneeze lk idiot. she is a monitor lizard i think. she can do her throat like one. XD hmmm. what else ha. i hope after saying this all, i could forget part of the tings as time passes by. but i dont think so easy lo. hmmm. alot of things la. kept inside my heart. never told any1. dont know who 2 go to. dont know who if i could trust. dont know who will listen 2 me. dont know who will unds me. dont know who will get me. i dont even know myself now. but i have told my self that i would care bout u. and i promise 2 myself i would side u, no matter u r right or wrong. i will support u. =) i do as i say. thats my promises i could make. =) thanks 2 the carlsberg. gave me the courage 2 say out everything that i will nvn have the courage 2 spit it out. this is an unforgettable night. i said alot that i had nvn tot of telling any1. even my close frens. but suld say thanks 2 rachel for giving me a chance 2 say it out also. if it wasnt her who do the party, i stil keep everything 2 myself. also "thanks" 2 her, BROKE MY NAIL. mcb. 6months u noe. T_T sad!! ROARS! kek shi wa liao! haih. but anyway, afterall, i m happy yet sad. not 2 happy but not really that sad. tml we all will b having dinner with mr. ashok. HAHAHAHA HAHAHA. at mizi bistro. =) i hope everything goes rite. anyway, sorry agn if i offended u guys. xD 3 more days! =X sorry if i repeated my words. lol.