#222

i won't blame life. because i'm destined to be like this. i won't blame him as well. because it's fate. well. i'm not quite sure where am i going and what do i want. but for sure, i don't want this. i always tell myself that i wanna break the egg and turn over a new leaf. but i just can't. saying is easy, but not the part, doing. it's easy to say and difficult to be done. o.O blah. there are so much so much so much i wanna say. do. think. but i just felt i couldn't do it. maybe i dont have confidence but there are reasons right? there are always a reason behind something. =) it's just indescribable. =S whatever it is. i will rush through this. i promised myself. i never wanted this kind of .... . i never like living in this "place" i never liked!