#359

its week 12 already, the coming week. =( i can only see you for another three weeks. =( i dont get to hear u to teach me dy. =( sigh. guess thats why i should let go now. =) shouldnt had that feeling at the beginning. shouldnt have at all! but who am i to decide when to fall in love with? you dont plan to fall, you just fall in love. if you planned, then thats not love. idk i love you because of your beauty and sincere and kind heart. but i really like you. just want to stay by ur side and see you fall asleep. gives u a good massage when u're tired. gives u a hug when u feel frustrated. gives u all my love and make you feel happy. although i will not and cannot give u the true happiness. whatever. sk just dream on. u know this will lead u no where. =S but i really like you. idk like or love, but somehow, i miss you so much. i wanna pinch you too. =P whatever. i should just let it go. and if u ask me to do things, i would do. if u ask me to stop doing smth, i would too. because, u said. but of course, there must be some exceptions. :P anyway, i miss you. i really really really do m.i.s.s you very much! miss!! lao shi! :p <3

#358

After deleting my drafts. My posts dropped. Zzz. Kinda repeated n so watever. Now, i am asking dear buddha to please kindly bless lucky. My dog. Pls giv her the strength to go tru this. Pls buddha. Kindly heal her. I nvn c her in this situation b4 . I am afraid. I really do afraid. Its really scary even just to think of it.pls buddha. Kindly giv her a blessing. A small request by me..

#371

your replies are hard to wait. they are so slow and it's really annoying to wait your replies. ish. reply me faster! ARGH! anyway. i'm finishing my diploma very soon. one and a half months. =| idk what else to say. i'm so gonna miss them. hmmm. but idk la. old stuff dont leave, where got new stuff. i can leave everything, but i cant just leave a few thing. one, paris, two, wew, three, sue. argh. =( even sadder to think about future. whether should study advanced dip or degree. saddddddddddddddd. haih. and also, i miss her! argh. now listening to korean songs. emo a lil ad sad-ing for my lucky. please do get well soon. =) and my legs and hands!!!!!! shit those shittass mosquitoes. stop biting me will you! damn it! and i did not go bon odori this year. as well as full moon party at 69. damn. i'm good. good girl. paris's influence. i must start studying. =) for you future and personal satisfaction sk!

#370

today took the first photoshoot ever in my life. omg. i am quite satisfied! woohooO! unbelievable. received quite a few comments. =) i hope to improve better and asap. =D and i hope to photoshoot paris. HAHAHAHAHHA!

#369

Woah. What a great day! Had law test. Kinda copied. Lol? Anyway today we took class photo. woohoo! I think i am in lovee. Ugh. Missing paris badly now, just wanna held her in my arms. So much. So badly. =( argh. If that was a dream then i wouldnt wanna wake. Just sleep off. Woah. I really. Whatever. I know thats impossible. Haha. But there hope. There always will be hope for the hopers. XD anyway. Had steamboat, really great laughters n enjoyable moments back then. Then went club, was kinda awkward then things changed. Lol. Ahnie n zhening drunk! Lol.. good exprience though. And now i am sober, missing paris. Imy! I think i really miss u a lot. =( but i knoe u will never be mine ! Stop ur dream sk. Enough of bullshit. And as a closing, ily. For now. =) idk hw long will that last. But i know i will last for quite some time. <3 much. Muacks! Love u thousand times i guess. Idk what i really like about u. Hmmm. Wonders* and u seem perfect to me. Heh. But i am not even close to perfect, nt even complete. I couldnt giv u everything, but for now, have all my love.

#368 Hatyai

for two days i have been to hatyai. not so bad, but it wasn't that good as well. anyway, expected. watever it is, it's over. bus spoiled when we were on the way home. zzz. terrible. what else? idk la. no mood. now?


macibai. if i really let ppl use then i must be real dumb. anyway. i am la. i was. i will and i will always be. when could i change that? idk. damn it. hate this all. shitass. cibai.

#367

Hmmm. I am going to hatyai tmr. Hopefully i will have a enjoyable trip though. Ugh, i will be missing her, just another few weeks before end of semester. Ahhhh. So adorable. Pinch pinch! Lol. Her mom's bday tofay. Happy bday aunty! XD anyway. I spent my whole thurs studying law, till 3.30 am! Oomggg!!! Unbelievable. The energy. =O imy! Omg. Argh. Audit test sucks. To the max. Totally!

#366 stressed!

i guess i am really so stressed up now. for the past one week, i couldnt sleep well. eat well. concentrate on what i should concentrate. no appetite. =( its saddening to hear that. where was the sk i once knew? who has all the confidence and do things with courage! where are u courage? where r u faith? where r u confidence? where r u believe!? i am lost. so lost. idk what striked me till i became this. i miss the old me. now i am afraid of everything. i am afraid to lose anything. like really everything. =O i was used to not afraid of tests and finals but now i am so tensed up that i could just blow up. arghh. roars! i am a roaring goat! not a scapegoat! btw, last tuesday, i was scolded by a lecturer, hairband. becuz of smth i did not do. damn it. then mon night got lecturered by my dad, fcuk it. everyday got problem. mcb. i cant stand this anymore. i just want to chillax! get wasted. but now i am stucked on you! damn it. u r so out of my league. totally out. i could i see u from far, knowing u will never be mine. so close yet so far. but if u r happy then i am. and i hope i did not annoyed u for pass few days. becuz i am lame. i wasnt like this! again! over over! i want the old me!!!!! ughhhhhh!!!! ROARSSSSSS!!!!!

#365

ohmygawd. how could i miss you so much? you are like a helicopter patrolling around my head. damn it. seriously. this is mission impossible. =S i wanna just whisper to you but i can't. =(