Thursday, 15 July 2010

dishearteness.

today was presentation and as usual. i flunked it. so fcuked up stresses these few days, or weeks? so tired of life and really sick of it. it's really fcuked up life. am i complaining too much? yes. i am. but that's my personality. am i remembering too much? yes. it's my characteristic. am i an idiot? of course i am. i am definitely one dumbo idiotic ass. perhaps i should stop doing those extra stuff. being kind is not easy. and yes. you did disheartenED me. u broke me. u made my day even worst. it's not that i want or not. it's i cant. i really want to. but i just cant. maybe next time i should just shut the hell up of me. life is so tiring. i wish for a god damn break. i dont want to see so much. it breaks my heart. leaves scars in it. and these wounds dont heal even times has passed by so much. i rather you kill me than break me. thanks for that though. at least, i learned a lesson, don't be so busy body next time. or not? you'll ended up be another dumbass. thanks for making the tears to fell though. i have been saving for a reason. and i did not expect the reason is you. i am not complaining or saying or what so ever. but i knew this thing could happen one day. and the day has come. you said it out. i am not angry of you but i am angry of myself. and this guilt in me has finally released out. at least, i have one less burden. if you still want to blame me for that. i have nothing to say. guess i will just stfu and walk away. and my heart is breaking. i could feel the guilt in it that is tearing it apart. life. sucks.

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