seriously

i dont mind you come and look for me when u r in any hardships but what concerns me is that, our friendship is just like that? and that's it? no other topics to talk about ? u said u were a chatterbox, but what now? sigh. i seriously dont mind , instead i feel happy if u talk 2 me. that's karma i suppose? i dun mind being used by u, dun mind being someone invisible to u but somehow u never paid attention to my feelings. u dont even bother. so what am i, after all this while, i'm just another dog? or wat? another person u will go to when u are having issues in ur life? i am getting tired lately. because i totally dont understand you. u knew i wouldnt backstab or betray u. after so many years right? after all those stuff u did to me, i still dint bother and i stil help u. but what do i get in return? nothing right? yeah totally crap shit. like nothing. not even a word of concern. i feel like i'm juz a tool. i am not going to post it here today (16 april 2010, 12.41 AM) because i knew if u saw this post u straight will know it's u. i will still be the pair of ears if u need one, i will still lend my shoulder if u need a shoulder to lean on. if u need help, i will still help. because i still feel i owe u, my dear sis. =| and i couldnt figure out that i should be happy ? or ? sad ? with this. sigh.