#304?

wow. magnificent! i got 39.5 for econs. and that's over 40! wow. incredible. and finals gonna start on 8th. i hope i could start studying now. i am becoming more and more afraid of losing. i dont know. it just makes me feel useless and such a loser. and it also denies my ability as a scholarship holder. actually deep down inside, i know i am not such a loser. but there's no spirit within that are coming out. =| where are you? my spirit to fight? spirit to win? i like winning. i really do.